So…I was really hoping I could come back to you a month later with some huge spiritual experience and an “I’m out of the woods” story. I don’t have one.
Instead it has been baby steps forward, only to stumble back again. Some days I’m fine, some days all I want to do is lay down and cry because it just doesn’t make sense to me.
Darkness has been so evident lately and I’m so scared of falling into it instead of God. I know it’s really not my battle because I’m not strong enough to fight against it…but I don’t really know how to surrender it to God, either. I’m not really sure how to trust someone I can’t see, feel or hear but I want to.
I want to hate the darkness and be free from it. I want to be okay again and stop falling into…
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